RIP Diet

Lol, saw this on facebook and it made me laugh. I have lost some weight from work( in my legs from always walking) but nothing really noticeable. I think I actually gained some weight in my stomach. Since winter is ending I shed some layers and noticed my tees fitting tighter.

Winter is almost over and I am disappointed it’s been months since I have worked out,but no crying over split milk right? In a week or two the weather will be warm enough to return to the park. I’m excited. I’ve moped and hibernated all winter and I’m mentally fed up with everything. I look forward to FINALLY getting back on a healthy path. I have been eating better ( no fast food, been cooking). This week I dumped the junk food and when I went to the supermarket I didn’t pick up any junk. When I go food shopping I’m hitting the fresh produce. It’s time.

I’ve been lazy, that’s what it boils down too. But, spring is around the corner and it’s time for a fresh start. New Year Resolution Goals are still there and I’m still going to work on it!

Does anyone still follow this blog? I know it’s been quite some time since I have posted…

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It’s Voting time again

Hello my dear followers.  I have a favor to ask. If you can, please click this link . Here is a  hard link too since pingbacks seem to be acting up:
http://tfaswift.com/2013/02/24/vote-the-poll/

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I part took in the Swift Expression blog challenge and now it’s time to vote for the winner of all those who participated and completed all parts of the writing challenge.  I have done this challenge on my other profile, my personal profile Corner of Confessions .

I am enaging in the NEW challenge over on Swift Expression as well.  I already posted two entries for it and even started a new page so the answers can be easily retrievable. If you like a specific link to any of my challenge answers feel free to ask and I will pluck it for you. ( I was a messy blogger didnt make a new category or special tag for the challenge the voting is referring to) But i did all the parts and it’s here on my blog you just have to scroll a bit.

Again, please take the minute to vote. If you read someone else posts and find them more moving than by all means vote for them. Show your support to whomever you wish. Just please go vote.  If you like, drop a quick comment there to let me (or whoever you voted for) know you voted so we can give you a personal Thank You.

Thank you. Spread the word. Hopefully, I will see you joining in the new challenge 😉

Hypocrite

I”m a hypocrite. I know i wrote countless times, not to obsess over the scale, the number in which you weigh. The number does not define you. It’s all about being comfortable in your own skin, and in your health both mental and physical. I do believe this and live by this.

But, being off a diet and exercise for several months now, the scale started to taunt me.

I was scared to get on the scale and see numbers. Numbers I didn’t want to see. I was scared to see my hard work erased by each count of the ticker of the scale. Proof. Proof of the lack of effort and progress in my health.

I was scared of the scale.

Of the number. The number I may read.

I’m a hypocrite.

It took me awhile, but finally i grew  a pair and pulled out the scale. I’m ashamed to admit how elated I was when I read  it was only a plus 2 pounds since the last time I weighed myself since my diet a few months ago.

The number on the scale, be it less or more, shouldn’t have that kind of power. I let it have power, control over my mind.

After i got off the scale, i felt smug. I opened my fridge and took out eggs and sausage to cook for breakfast. I made a big breakfast as a reward.

After i stuffed my face, I said to myself what the hell am I rewarding myself for?

I haven’t worked out, a real work out, in months. I haven’t been eating healthy. Though my problem isn’t so much over eating, or eating too much, but back to the old habit of eating little all day and then one big meal , or eating late at night like when i return home from working closing.

I should slap myself.

So, I’m doing that now.

I woke up this morning and made my coffee. I ate a portioned control bowl of cereal , even though I wasn’t hungry. For lunch I had a little cup of mac and cheese. No junk food. I need to get back on track in regulating my metabolism. I need to get back on track on putting good stuff into my body. I need to take back control.

And I’m going to do just that.

I have the power.

I wont be a hypocrite.

Great post, great message. Just read it, my words in describing this post wont do it justice.

The right re-blog post

I tried to do a reblog, but some reason or another it reblogged the wrong post. So i deleted it ( but it still shows up in your reader). This is the link to the correct post I wanted to share. A compilation of 10 inspiring youtube videos, fitness related. Via GlennFolkes’ blog.

http://glennfolkes.wordpress.com/2013/01/26/motivation-inspiration-top-10-viral-motivation-and-inspiration-videos-on-youtube/

Anybody out there?

Anybody out there still following my now inactive diet blog?

I apologize for the lack of blogging and dieting. Please bare with me, as I am not giving up. It is winter in my part of the world, so outside working out isn’t really appealing. I have to figure something out on the work out front.

I have a lot I have to work out, in my head and in my schedule. Like I’ve always said getting healthy isn’t just about what you eat ( though that’s a big part).

Monday, I’m going to try to atleast get back on track food wise.
I do stay active on my days off , and working retail on the weekends I am always on my feet and running about. So, that’s a good thing right? I’m not laying around on my butt all day long.

In the mean time though, feel free to pop over to my personal blog :

http://cornerofconfessions.wordpress.com/

Thank you all for your continue support, you all are great motivation to keep moving forward and force myself to hold myself accountable. Thank you!

What’s your fitness goal?

Saw this on facebook and thought I would share it was so funny. What’s your fitness goal eh? LOL

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Second Chance Award?

I’ve have conflicting feelings with awards. The first nomination i received was from the wonderful Tilda. But, I was new to blogging and didn’t understand or see the value of being nominated from something when I didn’t particularly do anything to earn it.  Then on her blog Swift Expression she started a blogging challenge series and gifted awards to the winners and I was granted onw which i displayed on my blog moments after the announcement without a second thought or hesitation. It was merit based and not chain-mail like.

I was nominated twice for other awards by some of my other followers. I thanked them ( sincerely , i really do appreciate the thought of me and it warms my heart) but i never went ahead and committed to the award and blogged about and displayed it on my blog.

I’ve have been blogging regularly for  a few months now and I keep seeing all types of awards. I’m starting to feel different about them  because I’ve grown as  blogger. I’ve grown connected to my follower and those that i follow. Any thought or input or consideration from my cyber word press family personally touches my heart and i appreciate it greatly.

So, with a new heart trying to over power my skeptical mind I decided to give these awards a chance. New year, new things right?

Cheri over on Cheri Speaks has nominated me for an award, Very Inspiring Blogger Award. SO thank you Cheri, for thinking of me and causing me to open my mind and try new things.  I accept of course 🙂 I would nominate you again if i could!

Here are the rules:

  • Thank the person who nominated you and link back to them in your post.
  • Share 7 interesting things about yourself.
  • Nominate 7 bloggers you admire.
  • Leave a comment somewhere on the seven blogs to make them aware of their nomination

SO Cheri, Thank you again ❤

Now, 7 interesting facts about myself?

1) I have a bad/rude and crude side. I know impossible to fathom of happy go lucky little ol me right? But, i do. I work hard to BE happy and be kind and keep that side in check. But, it’s not easy to be a good person. It’s much easier to be nasty. But, i put the extra effort, take a deep breath and act the part even if i don’t particularly feel very happy or nice that day. And each day that i do , it’s less of a chore and less of an act to the point where  I have reached now where it’s automatic and natural. Some days i still struggle. I also conduct myself different say at work and at home. People are often surprised when i drop that barrier to my two personalities. I just don’t feel comfortable mixing those sides.  Like one of my co-workers heard me curse for the first time yesterday. They nearly dropped the items they were putting back on the shelves they where so shocked. But in real life, i curse a lot actually.

2)It’s not a secret  I like to read. But, i don’ often disclose WHAT i read. I read YA paranormal romance or action or even sci/fi  fiction. I love my supernatural stories. I do read literature and novels occasionally but 90% of my reading is YA series.  Just yesterday I was at work reading my book before my shift and the store manager saw me reading and stopped and said ” Kiddo, so smart! Reading a book! We don’t see alot of that around here! Good job, keeping reading!” I smiled and said thank you i will. Little did she know I was reading about vampires and alchemists. Let her think I was reading Simone De Beauvoir. I have read alot of her works though lol, just making a point.

3)I’m embrassed of my feet. You all know I don’t care what people think of me, how i look, how much i weigh. I can go outside in my pjs, hair a mess and not care. But i rarely show my toes. I have yet to over come this.

4) I wasn’t always comfortable with other people and their judgement. Presently,  true I don’t care. But in my early teens and younger years? I wouldn’t even like to buy fast food or eat in public. I just felt judgment shooting at me like ray beams.

5) I love cheese and i hate it at the same time. I don’t like to handle cheese. I cannot cut the block cheese into little squares to eat with crackers. The smell hits me and i just want to puke. Making mac and cheese? Ugh. I only eat certain kinds of Mac and Cheese because it’s less of a smell.  And straight yellow cheese  please. Don’t bring the white cheddar anywhere near me!

6)I’m a very anxious person. I hate the administrative side of things. I don’t like to be the one to speak and go up to a person for assistance in offices. I don’t like making the phone calls. But i do it anyways. All. the. time

7)I’m very ashamed of my place in life. I thought I would be in a better place and accomplished more by this point. I know I have alot on my plate and good reason to only be where I am now. I do not regret or hold animosity to anyone. But i look at my peers who have their degrees and good jobs and I do feel shame I have not yet reached that. I wish them best luck and am very happy for them, no envy. I just feel ashamed I’m not in the same place. I know i will get there but its depressing to think of the time it will take to get there.

And drum roll please! My nominations are ( in no particular order, and also alot of you have already gotten a award or been awarded so i had to decide on different bloggers)

1) Lost Companion
This blogger i started to follow very recently and I am in awe of her. She is so brave. She shared her history of abuse and struggle and even through her very difficult life trails past and present she is working hard to cope and progress onwards. She has a cheerleader out of me, in her corner wishing her happiness and peace and success.

2) The Dance Theorem
This blogger has reminded what it is like to have passion. She blogs about her passion for dance and lack of outlet to progress with her passion, yet still tries. When i read her blog I am thrilled when she announces she accomplished or pursued something new for her dance. I hope one day to read her blog when she announced she is a full fledged Ballerina.

3)The Invisible Girl Vs. The World
This lovely blogging blogs EVERYDAY about coming of age and struggling with family, college , and her feelings. It’s something special to read everyday and I feel like I’m watching her grow up each day.

4)I Have To Be Skinny
This blogger is up there on my list with her openess and honesty of experiencing life as a plus sized woman and shares her fears and goals to be healthy.  She writes very real life account of her treatment by others and what’s it like in living in a judgmental world.

5)Rest Haven Court
I love this blog. This is a joint blog of sisters that share their Do It Yourself experiences in a very fun and easy to understand way.  They inspire me to get creative.

6) The Cage Of Hunger
Though she doesn’t blog often when she does its a very open and honest account of struggling with eating disorders.

7) Cancer Crutches Babies
I just found this blogger this week and I spent hours sitting there reading every single entry from beginning to end and was left with my heart in little ol’ pieces. She is so brave and strong. My heart breaks for her and this is one of those situations where you wish you knew them in real life to be there for them and help them through life’s impossible choices.

 

After I post this, I will go around to their blogs and left a little comment notifying them I have nominated them. Having completed this award now, I kind of like it. It’s a way of acknowledging each other and helping each other out. I heart you all! Thank you for being part of my blogging life. Many of you I carry with you in my heart in my very real life. Thank you for enriching my life everyone!

Will you walk?

I know it has been quite a while since I last posted. For that, I am sorry. I just didn’t have anything health related to report. While, I have been doing better with actually eating and stuff, it’s still normal and not that healthy. With work, I’m in motion non-stop but I haven’t resumed working out daily either. So, I didn’t want to post mundane things or keep posting the same “I’m not back on track updates”. But, I read something this morning that was amazing and I think we all can benefit from it. I’m said many times, I’m working for my health, not the scale. I don’t care about the numbers, I just want to reach a level of fitness and be in overall good health. I want to live and I want to live for awhile and not be restricted in what I can and cannot do. I don’t want to be one of those people that can’t go on a hike or go on an adventure. I never want to count stairs or research if something has a weight capacity. But, i also don’t want to become a gym rat with obsessive eating tendencies. Conformity is on both sides of the scale. I want a balance. I want to have the liberty to live life and eat a piece of cake if i so desire. No stress. No fuse. Just giving myself those options.

SO i read this facebook status from Michael Moore and I thought it was really amazing.  The power of going for a walk. Really inspirational and motivating. Please give it a read.

I am now in Week 42 of my walks. Each day, 30 minutes, that’s it. Thousands of you have joined me since that Sunday night on March 18 when, as a joke, I said I was going for a walk. I had read that morning in the paper that there were now more people in the U.S. on anti-depressants than those who go to the movies. I tweeted out that maybe that’s the problem — perhaps if people got out and went to the movies more they might feel better. This unleashed a lively conversation about mood-aletering drugs, the lousy movies these days in theaters, the rip-off prices for 3D films, etc. Finally, someone wrote: “Sometimes I think what I need is just a brisk walk.” I tweeted, “Hey, there’s an idea! I’m putting my shoes on right now.” I went out and came back home after 30 minutes — and a few hundred of you had amazingly joined me where you live. So I went walking the next night, probably out of some sort of obligation because so many had written to say “please let’s do it again tonight!” So I did. And the night after that. By the end of the week it was hard to determine how many thousands were now going out with me on these “virtual walks” in hundreds of cities and towns, but it had taken off like a rocket and so we all went walking every night from that point on.

Now it’s 250 days later. What a simple, great idea that person had! Some have asked, “Why are we walking?” “What’s the cause?” There is no cause other than to go for a walk. We do it just because it feels good. We do it because we can. We do it because it’s free and it takes no time. All you need to know is how to put one foot in front of the other (or, for the disabled who’ve joined in, by any means necessary). It’s the perfect slacker/schlub activity.

I am often asked “How much weight have you lost from all this walking?” For a while I didn’t understand the question. I mean, why would I want to lose anything? I have enough trouble finding my keys! Then I got it — skinny people (1/3 of the country) want us, the majority, to be like them. That’s so nice of them.

But the truth is, exercise does not work, diets do not work, feeling crummy does not work. Nothing works. My advice: Quit trying to be something you’re not, be happy with the life you’ve been given, and just go for a pleasant walk outside. With me. Wherever you are. Get off the treadmill, stop drinking diet Coke, throw out all the rules. It’s all a scam and it conspires to keep you miserable. If it says “low-fat” or “sugar-free” or “just 100 calories!” throw it out. Remember, one of the main tenets of capitalism is to have the consumer filled with fear, insecurity, envy and unhappiness so that we can spend, spend, spend our way out of it and, dammit, just feel better for a little while. But we don’t, do we? The path to happiness – and deep down, we all know this — is created by love, and being kind to oneself, sharing a sense of community with others, becoming a participant instead of a spectator, and being in motion. Moving. Moving around all day. Lifting things, even if it’s yourself. Going for a walk every day will change your thinking and have a ripple effect. You’ll find yourself only eating when you’re truly hungry. And if you’re not hungry, go clean your room, or have sex, or call a friend on the phone. Without knowing it, you’ll starting eating like the French (there is no French word for “fast-food”) — and you will feel better. You do not feel better admonishing yourself or beating yourself up or setting up a bunch of unrealistic rules and goals with all the do’s and dont’s that are just begging to be broken. You wanna know something? I eat ice cream every friggin’ day. I drink a regular Coke every single day. I put butter on things. But I also walk every day. Some days now, I walk twice. And now I’ve started to do some push-ups and lifting stuff. It’s building muscle, and in doing so, has created an extra furnace to burn stuff and create energy. Weird! That, in turn, makes me sleep 7-8 hours a night which is another game-changer. And all the walking and lifting makes me thirsty, so that makes me drink more water — another huge plus!

So, you can see from the photo of me up in the box that something has changed. I have no idea how much weight I’ve lost and I don’t care. I don’t care about that or diets or home gym equipment or rules about what I can or cannot eat or anything other than making sure I go on my walk today. That’s it. That’s the big secret. It costs nothing. I feel great. I can see my feet! There they are! Hello, feet! Wanna go for a walk? The feet say YES! Ask yours right now. And if you want, join me. But do NOT go on that walk with me if you are doing so to “get fit”, “be healthy”, or “lose weight”. You are fine just the way you are. Only walk outside with me right now because you know it might just feel good, because it’s a beautiful day, or someone is joining in with you, the fresh air is invigorating, you have to drive down to the drug store but you realize you can walk there, or simply because it’s just nice to be alive for one more day. Walk to walk and nothing else — and the other stuff will take care of itself.

I’m heading outside in an hour. Join me. And let me know how it went

 

 

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Merry Christmas Everyone! I hope everyone had a very special Christmas!

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Today, my only day off, i woke up extra early because my doggie woke me up. After I walked her she ditched me and went straight back to sleep. I , however, cannot fall back asleep so i made coffee and discovered I was out of coffee creamer. Had a lazy morning on facebook and wordpress. Showered and dressed in my favorite PJS.

Yup, it’s that type of Christmas. So tired from work. No dressing up or frilly-ness this year. It was liberating to be honest.

My mother had the pork in the oven cooking since the wee hours of the morning. When i came downstairs after showering all i see was SMOKE. So my hubby opens the over and in his words “FLAMES ALMOST HIT ME IN THE FACE!” ….lol! It wasn’t that bad. It was a small…

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Vote for me

I forgot to reblog this early. On my personal blog i part took in a blog challenge over on Swift Expression blog. This was the first in the series. The poll is up to vote for the first blog challenge winner. The second blog challenge is up and I already did most of them cause im going to be working nonstop and wont have the time too later. But, if you feel so inclined please vote for me for the first blog challenge.

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Vote for me?

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Over on Swift Expression the first Blog Challenge is down and now the poll is up to vote for the winner who gets to decide where the money raised will be donated. I’m not fussy about wining but still i urge you to pop over there and vote for me if feel so inclined. Of course if someone else sparks your fancy you are more than welcomed to vote for them.

Here is the Poll Link :

http://tfaswift.com/2012/12/15/vote-poll-1/

If that adorable picture ( found on google) wasn’t cute enough and didn’t say please enough maybe a different power of persuasion can be deployed?

How bout fear?

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Now if that doesn’t scare you into voting I don’t know what will! LOL.

Seriously, the whole point of everything is to inspire each other and encourage each other like a creative writing group. So please do take the time click…

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As my readers may know, I just started participating on Swift Expression Blog Challenges. What i didn’t mention was the winner will be decided by means of a poll. And in the spirit of giving back the winner can decide which charity to donate too. The problem is, no one is donating to the charity.

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To be fair, I have not donated yet. But, i do plan too when I receive my check ( we don’t get paid weekly) and when my bank account is sorted out ( I had to open a new account and do not have a bank/debit card yet).

But, i ask of you if you would like support this cause please do. The minimum donation  is one single dollar. Here in the blogging world, we often try so hard to share our words and make a difference. We also see of these fundraisers by…

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Link

Hey my dear readers!

I updated my personal blog Corner of Confessions and i wanted to share that here. I didn’t want to simply reblog it  cause I wanted to add a little health related information to this blog. So  here is the link to my personal blog’s latest entry( though most of you already follow that blog too).

In health related news ,  I just wanted to let everyone know I have been doing better with my eating habits. I’ve been working hard and time managing better so I make sure to eat something with my morning coffee before work. My days off, I have been eating 3 square meals. Next week when i go food shopping I’m investing in those health drinks and smoothie drinks and will be taking it to work to have on my meal breaks. So, I’m taking steps to getting back on the healthy train and fix my metabolism again.

My new struggle is finding the desire to work out again. I’ve been having two or three days off in a row. The first day off , i do all the outside errands ( bank, dollar store, supermarket, bodega, pharmacy etc). Then the second day off i play catch up on all the cleaning and house chores. If i have I third day off, like today, I try my best to invest a chuck of it into my blog and facebook and email and phone calls and texting… reconnecting with friends and family….and my TV. Catching up on all my shows. But most importantly spending time with the hubby and my doggie. Today I will be giving my doggie a bath and brushing her teeth and cleaning her ears. I just finished this big breakfast adventure with the hubby. Made coffee, scrambled eggs, hash browns and spam. So stuffed. Took forever to clean up the kitchen. I’m now boiling chicken for my doggie and just took out chicken to defrost for dinner for the hubby. I will be seasoning them in an hour or two when they are defrosted and then figure out a side for the chicken for the hubby.  The past couple of days I have also been Christmas shopping. I just need to get a toy for my niece to go with the clothes I got her and something a little extra to supplement the long sleeve thermal graphic tee i got my brother.  I wish i had more funds, but I set a budget and i got everyone a little something..and item or two. Nothing pricey or crazy money.

The problem is…  i like this domesticated stuff. I like spending the time with my man and my dog. I like being home. I miss them so much when I’m working. And honestly? Work has been kind of strenuous. My arms are just starting to feel normal again  on the third day off.  Thanks to phase one of my diet I have ALOT more stamina than i used too… so work hasn’t been hard for me physically. Just using muscles i never used and with my job it isnt your typical retail store… we have to be doing something at all times.  I’ve cleaned, I’ve done stock, I’ve done new displays, I’ve been the folder, the hanger up-er and Ive been the return person ( put back all the stuff people dumped around the store or at the register) and worked the register…all in the same shift. I like my job. I like the activity. It’s also mentally exhausting cause we have to stay alert at all times, paying attention to customers, staying aware ( look out for thieves) and especially on the register( dealing with money)But, i do feel quite tired after a days of work. I felt my arms today and I’m starting to get little muscles!

I have to mentally pep talk myself into working out again. So that’s the next step. But, i haven’t been too upset about it because like i said my job is active. I’m not laying in bed all day on my day off either. So i’m content. But, i don’t want to be content. I want to strive for better… just better living and health. So that’s next on the list to tackle.

I just want to thank you all for baring with me. I know it’s taking me awhile to get back on track, but I’m getting there! I’m very honored you all are patiently waiting and encouraging me along.

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I’m Terrible and I know it. I’ve been such a bad blogger. I know it’s been a while since I’ve updated and I kept updating with an update. Unfortunately , this is another update post. But keeping with the integrity of my blog, I want to be honest with you all.

I haven’t started phase two of my diet.

While I have not been eating all crazy, I haven’t really been eating much at all. Which is still not healthy. And as i shared with you all in previous posts,  this was my number one bad habit and why i struggled so much with weight management… i kill my metabolism by not eating all day long.

I’m not skinny, and I don’t not eat for anorexic reasons. I’m not starving myself on purpose. I just dont feel hungry or feel I have the proper time to make, eat and clean up and digest my food.  I lost and maintained the loss of 25 pounds from Phase one of my diet. It’s just i relapsed into these unhealthy habits in living life.

First it was laziness. I’ll own up to that. Then it was doctors and then its was job interviews and job hunting. Then it was the mess of Hurricane Sandy and hosting family.
Now? It’s the mess of working a seasonal retail job. My hours are all over the place. While I am only a part time hire, my schedule has been completely whacked. I worked 8 hours closing the store one night, then i worked 8 hours opening the next day.

I’m brand new with no prior retail experience so I had all that lovely training in HR offices. And then was thrust onto the work floor. It’s a learn as you go type of deal. But, pretty nerve wrecking especially working a  register and dealing with money.

If I’m working more than 6 hours that day, I get a lunch break. However, I don’t get that hungry feeling anymore. I eat something small before i leave for work with my coffee. So when it’s meal break weather its lunch or dinner time I don’t feel hungry. Maybe it’s mental cause I’m the type that can’t rush and eat. So what do i do? I don’t eat. As a new hire we don’t have lockers and such yet so I wasn’t bringing much with me to work. Packing lunch may be the only option for me if I wish to maintain a healthy plan. Cause I don’t even eat fast food. Which is all you can find in the food court. But , by time i make it to the HR office to clock out for lunch , rush over to the food court, wait online to order something, get my food it’s almost time for my lunch to be up and have to go back to HR to clock back in. So , i just drink water and step outside for fresh air or a smoke. ( Yeah , I haven’t ditched the habit yet, but that’s in the diet.health plan too).

Today is Thanksgiving.  I hardly ate and not for lack of time or food.  Having relapsed into eating once a day or something small for breakfast before work and then a small dinner like a sandwich when I come home, my appetite has shrunk.  I made this big plate and I ate like a quarter of it and I was full. My mother had an array of pies and cakes and usually I would pick at a piece of each. I barely managed to eat one SMALL slice. I still feel so stuffed.

I killed my metabolism.

I have noticed my clothes are a little roomier and I think that’s from work. Walking the aisle none stop at work, doing returns and standing at the register…always in movement.  But, i’m not living healthy.

I’m being honest. Cause I value my blog and I value my readers.

I do promise you this, cause I promised myself this too, I WILL get back on the healthy path. Just because it’s not convenient , my schedule makes things a little hard… doesn’t mean I should just say eff it.

But like i said in other posts, there is also a mental and emotional side of things. It’s very hard for me to go to work and be away from my family. My first day off I cuddled in bed all day with my fiancee and my dog, I missed them so much. I thought about going to the park to walk and work out , but the fiancee being sick and my dog being a little dog and lazy, they can’t work out. So i choose to stay home instead of working out.

I have to find a compromise though. So that’s the next venture! Figuring things out!  :Nods:

I can live with that. Acknowledge my mistakes, own up to them and then map out a plan.  Cause that’s all we can do with anything in life, live life and figure it out.

But, fair warning, I”m working Black Friday. After this post I’m going to shower and pick out an outfit and do my hair and all that stuff. Then I have to head to bed to be up at 4am to be ready to leave at 5am to be at work by 6am. I work 6am-4pm.  I am beyond scared and nervous. I don’t feel ready and trained enough for this type of crowd and swarms of people.  But, trying to think positive thoughts.
So, I may be missing from wordpress ( not just updating my blog, but viewing and commenting on yours as well) altogether for the next day or two.

But , I haven’t vanished. I shall always return. I promise.

Hang in there

I just wanted to write to my readers and followers a quick bit. I’m sorry I haven updated in awhile. It is not without cause. Each night I open up the laptop and log on and have every intention of writing. But then, i start nodding off right over the keyboard. One night i actually woke up two hours later to a dead laptop still open on my lap.

It’s just I’m dealing with post- hurricane Sandy effects. While my house didn’t personally get hit and suffer damage, my family resides in a declared disaster area.  So, we have been fostering them in my house hold.

I’m not complaining. I’m happy to help. But, it’s just doing stuff nonstop all day.

To be quite honest, there hasn’t been a Phase Two of my diet yet. But, i promise there will be. I still have health related stuff to tell you. So please, stay with me and hang in there. I will write a post of more substance definitely this weekend. I start working Monday so I will be sure to post something meaningful, profound and life affirming before then. Well, that is the plan anyways.

Thank you ya’ll. I appreciate each and every one of you and I know I have been slack in leaving feedback on your blogs but i caught up the other day and I’m trying to catch up tonight. Again, hang in there while I make my rounds.

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